ending every beginning..

A sudden appearance of a friend from past made me do a lot of internal editing before I let anything fly out of my mouth lol, she isn’t the best at handling emotional activities. Ever seen a more calm meditative mediating Buddhist-type woman turn into an angry emotional fearless marching Crusader type leader? The sight isn’t very pretty. And before all the many intelligent women out there attack me, that is not a women can’t think comment, it’s just alluding to the place that irrational and self damaging behaviors typically come from. Women tend to be able to control mental activity better, but are worse at controlling emotional activity. It’s sad how most women need constant attention and re-affirming.

I read a great little blurb days ago trashing my self-respect and insulting me publicly in the most horrible, wicked way possible. Such ugliness from such proclaimed beauty blotted my whole fantasy world. Not that I don’t divest myself of expectations and often make sure the people I’m doing something with can dish out as well as take it. It isn’t funny when it happens to them then we’ve got a sadist instead of a prankster. So, by the end of this thought process, my advice to you all is to never preconceive what the reaction to an event will be like, you are sure to be disappointed.

When you are doing what you really want to do, maybe for the first time, allow people the reality of their own emotions and the sincerity of their own responses. Don’t be shocked or bummed out if you are ignored or slugged in the mouth. Don’t try to get everything perfect. Sometimes it’s important to know when good enough is good enough and leave it at that.

Simplify your life. There are times when you just have to say no. Put your foot down and get rid of those things that swallow up your self-respect. Put away ‘like you-love you, insult you and love you even more’ people around you.

"Learn how to end it,". "Some can actually create chaos in our lives, but you can actually achieve more in ending it than you can in all of your frenzy."